Depth is what creates dimension.

How's that for pedantic?

Think again.

SAN ANTONIO OR BUST!!!!! I'll be back on monday.

Memories will kill ya man. Have you seen Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind? Its really good, interesting...painful. Its muse is memories and its vehicle is relationships. Jim Carrey and Kate Winslet. I also just watched Sideways tonight, a very nuianced movie...wine is the medium and the film pours and tastes just like the people, the wine it represents.

Moments of reality. Not on screen. Not on tv. Real moments.

The only significant relationship on the stage or screen is that between the actor(or the image) and the audience.

Thoughts Screamed from an Inadequate Soapbox!

Will this be the American New Wave? To borrow a variation on the term French New Wave(Nouvelle Vague?) Will it be that the american contribution to art will be the next step of incredibly talented people creating art that looks like they didnt take much time on it? I dunno, just a thought/quandry as I see things in society moving towards the fashionably laid back. I see shirts that scream at me "I DONT TRY TOO HARD." It is popular at the moment to tell the world that you really dont care that much. Will this be the American New Wave?

Watched some Cirque de Soleil last night on Bravo and was utterly impressed and inspired.

Going to church this morning.

Then Chicago --the mucisal this afternoon.

Then I am acting in a friends short film project.

Then I am editing my short film project.

WATCHOUT!!! Its gonna be an awesome day!

"Its a beautiful Day!" - U2

The Psalm of the day is Psalm 91. So much so is it the Psalm of the day that I feel the liberty to post it in its entirety.

Psalm 91
He who dwells in the shelter of the Most Hight will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress my God, in whome I trust." Surely He will save you from the fowlers snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked.

If you make the Most High your dwelling - even the Lord, who is my refuge - then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent. For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

"Because he loves me," says the Lord, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life will I satisfy him and show him my
salvation.

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in completely unrelated news i thought i had seen everything at wal mart but tonight something more to amaze me at wally world two birds flying around the store hmmmmmm

also on the way home from wal mart there was a guy standing on R st like shadowboxing or sparring by himself

my suggestion or exortation for the week is to give organized religion a try

Worms on wet cement
think about that.
In terms of hope and desperation.
In terms of perseverance and seeking.

Worms on dry cement, dry
think about that.
In terms of hope and desperation,
in terms of perseverance and seeking for something real.

Fat guy on a little horse. 

Society of Respect...?

So this is gonna be pretty rough. Its been awhile since Ive laid out my thoughts like this so forgive me also, forgive me if I offend you. PLEASE respond with your comments, its the only way we can all learn.

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A few weeks ago I got an idea for a story to tell that would've basically been about a high-school age guy, who was very well immersed in the popular culture of his school. He does decently in school, participates in after school sports and goes to plenty of parties. Along the way he would've become involved in a couple of people lives in ways that most of us do not experience. And in the end he would have learned from the error of his ways and hopefully found some form of resolution and change in his life. (especially in all of its vagueries---vagueries? Not a word.)

Ok, so maybe not the best story (especially in all of its vagueries---vagueries? Not a word.) But more important than the story was the thing that I was trying to make plain. As a working title for the story I was thinking along the lines of "What it is and why it shouldnt be." Confused? Basically I was going to attempt to gang tackle next to all of the problems surrounding sex culture in out society(allow me to be blatant.) So as I continued to work this through in my head and as I talked to friends (not about the story, but about events - their lives, my life) I realized that what I was attempting to do was so much bigger than I could capture in the moment on paper. I was struck by this idea of respect and how deficient our society is of this capstone.

WE HAVE CREATED A PERPETUAL MOTION MACHINE!!!!

I really think we have. We've created a cycle in our society that doubles back on itself for its problems and confusions. Please, ride this out here, I am not pointing fingers except to all of us. We live in a society where females have been completely and utterly objectified by males. Think about it. I'm not even going to site the crippling rise in porn sales. I am not going to look at MTV and their wiles. I am not going to peer at the music industry as it stands and lay the blame. Lets look. Sex is everywhere these days. Everywhere! If you dont believe me take a look through the sunday morning ads. When toilet bowl cleaners are being sold by a revealingly dressed woman. Men objectify women, and women allow themselves to be objectified...its not that easy but you get the idea.

In a world without valour and honour
Princesses fall for Ogres and
become hags when they lose their Dreams.

Be a knight of shining armour
a knight who'll fight the good fight
and slay the dragon to win his princess.

Demand and dream to be a princess
A princess who deserves not a king
but a knight who'll sweep you off your feet.

I started looking into Study Abroad programs today, lots of information. I am excited! ...and very tired, I dont do well on 3.5 hours of sleep.

I woke up this morning with a splitting headache. You know, the kind where the spot in the very center of your brain wants to reach out and touch every other place in your head but just can't.

I just wanted to share that thought with you, me, whoever reads this.

Write something about Perseverance.
Need to write something on Perseverance.
I want to write something about Perseverance,
about fighting complacency.
About the fight between what is momentary
and what is forever.
What I want my life to mean,

The epitaph question is so cliche.
Relationships not things and accomplishments.
People not prizes,
thats what makes the difference.
My kids, my friends, wife, family, my enemies.
Thats what matters.
My God that's what.


More on that later.
Its funny that on my music playlist the song Everything in its right place by Radiohead is sorted out of order.

The day is Monday, March 14th. It is the first official day of spring break! Although for me, I have technically been on break since Thursday afternoon! Its great! Though unfortunatley I am spending the week in the Omaha/Lincoln area, just relaxing and spending time with pals...exactley what I need. I worked tonight, but actually got sent home because I haven't taken my labret piercing out. Which hasn't really been a big deal up until this point AND my supervisor didn't seem to have the courage to come tell me himself, so he sent his assistand manager, I thought that was silly, but oh well no skin off my nose I got to go home 2 hours early.

I will be going to Minneapolis, MN. friday afternoon. Afternoon? I here you ask. Yes, working for the airline has its perks and I intend to fly up friday morning and fly home friday evening and either spend the day at Mall of America or in Downtown Minneapolis. Either way it will be an adventure, hopefully Mike or John or Jeff will join me up there.

Tommorow I am going to the funeral of "Grandma Dee" not a biological grandmother, but a honorary grandma none-the-less, more accurately I would say I was her honorary grandson..me and my brothers. She was our next door neighbor in my old neighbor and I have loads of great memories of her and her house. God bless her.

I just finished Fight Club in its original format(well, the novel. It was a short story before that but...details) and whewph! I think that the movie did an excellent job. It was sort of an expounded and abridged version of the Chuck Palahniuk(author) book, by David Fincher(director.) The book just has some extra little details and notes that make the story even better. The film fills with visuals that just cant be catered to in word form. The book, the film, the story would be one of the most mind trippiest works I've ever experienced. Also on that list: The Matrix and Primal Fear. Funny part is that Edward Norton was in all three.

No? He wasn't? You're right. But just imagine if he had played Neo in The Matrix...imagine it.

Now that I think about it also on that list would be: Requiem for a Dream, Snatch and Mulholland Dr.

Fight Club is a story about anarchy, about sacrifice about life. It is a story about death, it is a love story. Fight Club is a story about soap. A story about Change, revolution, anarchy(which is in and of itself a flawed concept - but thats for later) But above all, Fight Club is a story about soap.

To the un-believers or detractors from the thought of Fight Club the musical(if this is the first you're hearing about it check out this website) I think the beauty of the concept of the musical can be summed up in this line;

"Tyler sold his soap to department stores at $20 a bar. Lord knows what they charged. It was beautiful. We were selling rich women their own fat asses back to them."

Try to think for a moment of a more elitest group than those who regularly attend a broadway performance. The only group that I can maybe think of is the 500 Club, and they are fairly likely to be in the same company as those who attend shows regularly.

I think its brilliant. All of it. We'll wait and see.

~But in the end I don't think that anarchy will prevail. Only so much can be gained through violence and power. Power must be given, in order to be obtained. "A gentle answer..." The revolution of non-violence of peace, will be a long lived one. A hard battle to obtain in this callous, war riddled society of greed and capitalism. I dunno. ~ I'm out.

THIS IS FOR IVAN:

You know that you are being spoiled by your car's remote keyless entry system when you wish that your dorm room had remote keyless entry.

I HOPE YOURE HAPPY!

Yeah, this past weekend I spent going to and coming back from San Antonio, Texas with the purpose of picking up my new car(a red 1998 Buick Century) and seeing my grandparents. I completed both of my objectives as well as spending alot of quality time with my pop. With that said, I am now safely and soundly back in Lincoln, Nebraska. Where would you like my next adventure to be to?

Why is it so easy to be apathetic?

halfpastnormal: "Yeah, it was just a simple day and I really did feel happy about it being my birthday."

Life IS full of Colours! Full of hope! Its just that sometimes we cant see the flowers through the rain.

Who could've asked for a better day? Its 38 degress in Nebraska at 1am in the middle of January!!! Its amazing, the weather is beautiful. Who feels like a picnic.

The only thing that could've made today any better is if the computer lab would've been open when I got there at 8:40 this morning so I could've typed my freaking script before my class but oh well.

I looked around online tonight at some different colleges and I am just blown away at how Lincoln's program compares(or doesn't.) How did I get duped into going here?!? Darn you! Matt...(cant remember his last name) who I knew from my Highschool 745 live days and he was in Macbeth when I came and saw it here and said it was a really good program. Darn me for not much looking into it before I came. Fiddle-sticks to Mark Hoeger who told me that the program was really good because it integrated many different art forms together to reach film. "The program" sucks! Right now, University of Chicago, Art Institute of Chicago and USC all look tasty, but there is still much looking to do.

Lincoln is just so small, as a town, as a college, as a mindset.

"Jump from the cliff to fly, not to fall." - Remember No Fear clothing? yeah, buddy!

The best part of it being cold is the tears freezing to your face, but even that doesnt remove the pain.

AAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!! (in frustration and anger.)